believe.say.act.

cabut sini

baizulikha — Mon, 17 May 2010 17:56:06 +0000

http://bzulika.blogspot.com/

sebab ini wordpress sangat saya taraa suka.

lagi

baizulikha — Mon, 17 May 2010 14:18:06 +0000

yang sebenarnya, tak suka. tapi kenapa malas nak buat apa apa?

nak kena maki lagi?

ok, aku cabut now.

lagenda budak setan: buat aku termenung kejap

baizulikha — Sat, 15 May 2010 01:56:17 +0000

Ok, Encik Hadi Mok, kalau kali ni you ajak kitorang tengok cerita Farid Kamil, confirm yang ni I akan agree untuk pergi teman you. Cerita Melayu ni I tak kisah tak tunggu raya.

Lagenda Budak Setan, movie based on one of Ahadiat Akashah’s greatest novel, (iya, saya baca terlampau banyak novel cinta masa umur 14, tu yang hormon terlebih sekarang) is about a high school trouble maker yang konon macam best masuk geng anti-perempuan, Kasyah (Farid Kamil), yang last last jatuh cinta dengan Ayu.

Ayu, seayu Lisa Surihani (nice casting, right?) terima cinta Kasyah and diorang pun bercinta macam nak rak, last last terpisah sebab Kasyah kena pergi masuk ceruk kampung siapkan thesis.

Azmi (Que Haidar) ex-boyfriend Ayu, masuk curik line Kasyah and Ayu kena tricked kahwin dengan dia. Azmi dah la tak sehandsome semacho Kasyah, seorang yang panas baran, kaki mabuk and kaki pukul pulak tu. Aisehman. Kesian Ayu.

Long pause.

Aih, dejavu sekejap?

Ahh. Seingat aku la, (dah lama kot baca buku ni) Ayu kena pukul, lari rumah drive kereta, accident, muka hancur, mintak cerai from Azmi, and buat plastic surgery and tukar nama jadik Emilia.

Ha.. then diorang pun couple balik la setelah susah payah macam macam, then kahwin, in the end Ayu/Emilia mati masa beranak.

Apa apa pun cerita ni keluar 3rd June 2010. Jom tengok ramai ramai.

cerita aku

baizulikha — Fri, 14 May 2010 16:19:52 +0000

Cerita ini makin aku tulis, makin gelap dakwat penanya. Apa yang kusut, satu satu terjelas lokasi simpulnya, dan aku memang pening nak uraikan macam mana.

Fokus ok, fokus.

Cerita ini, makin aku elaborate, makin pendek pensilnya. Masa, aku tak tahu lokasi penghujung kat mana. Bila? Cerita aku, panjang lagi nak habis. Sakit, tapi cerita ini, kena terus ditulis.

Cerita ini, makin aku tulis, makin merah dakwat penanya.

Nak dengar cerita engkau pulak lah, amacam, ok?

xanax

baizulikha — Fri, 14 May 2010 12:09:04 +0000

Yeah, ubat ni dah buat otak aku tembam. Cute.

This is the bottom line of my misery, I refuse to go down any lower.

The secret is, when you look for answers, you shall find them. Thank God I found xanax.

Qiamat, dah menjelma. But the eclipse, is over. :)

taman

baizulikha — Fri, 14 May 2010 11:42:39 +0000

Dekat luar tingkap, aku tengok ada taman.

Taman Cantik, tapi bunga tak boleh petik.

Jauh, tak sampai.

Nak terjun bawah, tinggi, takut,

nanti mati kang.

So, aku termenung je lah.

Duduk tengok dari tingkap aku ni,

berangan bila boleh pergi main dekat taman.

Maybe bila rambut dah panjang macam Rapunzel?

Sepak sikit bontot aku,

Bodoh, ni bukan cerita Fairy Tale.

helipad

baizulikha — Wed, 12 May 2010 22:24:45 +0000

I had a visit from you,

in my dream last night.

It was so wonderful and scary, I didn’t want to wake up.

Wake me up the next time,

because I want to wake up knowing that I’m living my dream.

hello, mister/miss right.

baizulikha — Tue, 20 Apr 2010 18:37:21 +0000

The person you love the most

vs.

The person who loves you the most

This question is fired right back at me. And also this one.

Who is Mr/Miss Right? Who will be?

Once upon a time, about 8 months back, I took a friend’s advice. It was a damn good advice. My friend said, “There are many people in this world looking for Mr or Miss Right, but very few of them are really trying to be one. So why don’t you struggle to be someone’s Miss Right?”

And I took the challenge and struggled to be the perfect girlfriend. I was trying so hard, without realizing I have put myself way down. Too many imperfections to correct, I guess. Nothing was ever good enough.

So, article 56.

A Bro shall never reveal the score of a sporting event to another Bro until that Bro has thrice confirmed it’s cool.

Entah apa kena mengena. Saja jer. Rindu nak tengok How I Met Your Mother. LOL.

Right now I just need a break. A REAL break. A break from negative energies sucking me into Depression Land. Seriously. Dah tak ada langsung positive energy untuk jadi productive. No more headache (or heartache) please. I need a real good laugh. And a haircut.

Later guys.

chinese horoscope on facebook

baizulikha — Mon, 12 Apr 2010 06:55:24 +0000

I swear I was never a horoscope believer.

Once upon a time, about a month or two back, I decided to enroll in this Facebook application, Chinese Horoscope. Because I saw in my ex-boyfriend’s Facebook Boxes, there’s this application so I was like, what the hell, just for fun, hentam aje lah.

Ok, in UTP, hari hari aku online Facebook. Don’t blame me, ok, UTP memang bosan nak mampus. But every day, this horoscope really tells me the truth about my life! With 90% accuracy at least.

I was a bit stressed about a problem that been going on for weeks now. Tapi aku tak cerita kat orang, roomate aku je yang tau. It has something to do with me and my ex.

Yesterday I had a talk with my ex. But as usual he was still an asshole. So lantak engkau lahhh labu. Aku tak faham macam mana otak kau function, and aku rasa aku takkan faham. The world does not revolve around you baby, grow up be a man, step up bila problem datang! Bukannya cari salah siapa salah siapa, and blame the world sebab kau stressed. STOP MAKING EXCUSES FOR YOURSELF IT IS SO FUCKING ANNOYING. Semua orang pun stressed kot, tapi kadang kadang problem orang lain lagi besar dari problem kau. Hadui. *Tepuk kepala*

Ahhh. Tekanan.

Oh and yessss. Kawan kawan saya baik, bawa saya jalan jalan pergi makan breakfast kat Cameron Highlands! Seronok sangat. Lain kali kita ajak mok. And bawak tuner gitar sekali. Haha!

Kau Nak Ajar Aku Pasal Respect?

baizulikha — Tue, 06 Apr 2010 03:22:01 +0000

This post is in reply to my STEP sister’s Put the Blame On Me.

Engkau nak cakap engkau terasa dengan aku sebab aku ketepikan engkau kan. Hello, 1st of all, dulu siapa yang selalu call engkau and adik and make the effort untuk ajak engkau orang semua keluar? Engkau orang pernah ke yang dulu buzz aku kat YM atau facebook chat? Engkau orang, ade pernah ke call aku and ajak aku keluar? Tak ada kan? Bila kawan kawan ajak keluar, laju je kan? And…. korang kata aku pentingkan BF? Heh, when I needed you guys the most when I was so depressed before, YOU GUYS WERE NEVER THERE.

Bagus lah engkau orang have each other. Adik and kakak. Kakak and adik. Aku peduli apa, aku survive sorang sorang dari dulu kot.

Semalam engkau dah kurang hajar dengan aku kat dalam Facebook.

Hari ini engkau dah refer aku sebagai KAKAK TIRI engkau. Aku tak pernah buat macam tu sial. Sumpah aku tak pernah refer engkau orang as my step sisters.

And hari ini engkau nak suruh aku respect emak aku? Hello, cermin muka tu sikit dulu lah. Engkau tu yang kena belajar macam mana nak bercakap dengan orang tua. Rebellious sangat, cakap dengan mak bapak sendiri boleh nak tengking tengking. Aku, kena respect mak aku? Aku tau macam mana respect orang tua ok. Tak perlu everytime orang tegur engkau, engkau nak tarik tarik muka buat aksi aksi merajuk depan KFC, mak engkau nak menangis pasal engkau buat macam tu.

PERNAH KE ENGKAU CAKAP SORRY?

Hey, lain kali, before nak tuding jari kat orang, tengok salah silap diri sendiri dulu. I learned it the hard way. Tak payah la engkau nak berlagak macam baik sangat kat dalam blog gedik engkau tu. Apa yang mama cakap kat engkau tu semua betul kot. Tak payah la sebab kepala engkau tu dah tertutup, otak engkau pun tertutup skali motherfucker. ENGKAU PERGI MINTAK MAAF BALIK KAT MAK AKU LAH SIAL, KUANG AJAR!!!! JANGAN SETAKAT TULIS KAT BLOG ENGKAU JER!

So hari ni ko labelkan aku kakak tiri engkau yer. OK. THANK YOU. Sekian.